Human

Bits of blue. Nothing. Some more blue. And then nothing, again. Flutter of eyelashes. He´s awake now. Eyelids are opening slowly. Adjusting to the lightning in the room. They´re way too heavy. He closes them again. Shutting down the outside world won´t help you, my dear.

Lips slightly parted. Sucking in small breaths. To wash off the venom. Actually, there´s nothing poetic in this act. It´s just reflex. Trying not to suffocate. He´s still somewhere in between the state of slumber and being awake.

I roll to my stomach. Stretching my arms in front of me and then crossing them and laying my head on them. 

Concentration on his breathing. He´s deciding whether to wake up or go back to sleep. Deep breaths alternate with shallow ones. Sharp inhale. Awake. Conscious.

He focuses on me. By now, he knows I´ve been observing him like a puzzle ready to be solved. He doesn´t seem to mind. I don´t see red anymore. The aura around us from yesterday is long gone. It pains me when we argue. He hates it even more.

Dilated pupils are circled by bright blue iris. Colour is always changing with light and mood. Dimness of the room made them stand out even more against his dark hair. Dilated pupils are result of sleepiness. Harmless. Innocent. Charming. I´m few inches from his face.

Listening to his heartbeat. It seems to be put off a little bit. But it isn´t slowing down or anything. So it´s fine, right?

Inhale. The rush of blood in heart. It´s coming in waves. Starting in right atrium. Following steadily into right chamber. Another wave hits the pulmonary artery dividing into right and left side. They lead the blood into lungs. It returns back by the pulmonary veins. Two from each side. Coming through left atrium and ending in the left chamber. Exhale.

Milliseconds. The same cycle all over again. It can´t alter on its own. There´s some system in every chaotic body. Same cycle all over again. Like breathing. Like you.

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